Gabe
8 years ago I found myself at my first bible study something called “And God Made Woman” A.K.A , AGMW…. Not yet saved somewhat on the fence in between believing and not believing .
Having grown up with no real mention of God or religion in my life it was really hard to wrap my brain around this new concept of an all powerful being that loved me and even if he existed what did it all mean,what difference could God make ? Having been brought up in the world of “If it is to good to be true it probaly is.”, and honestly this God seemed to good to be true. Already having had plenty of trust issues with the men in my life why would I want to invite another one in ?
AGMW was however just what was needed this sparkly bubble lady with tons of kids that could talk as much as the day is long had captured my heart ,Diana shared wonderful ,funny ,and sometime painful stories about what it meant to be a woman from her own life . She was a real person that was willing to share her pain and her faults she was like me ,but she had knowledge .How to be a better wife ,mother ,a better person. Week after week we listened ,absorbed ,and processed ,studied and had some great laughs . Lessons in parenthood what it meant to be a wife , daughter, mother and how all these relationships effected who we were then and how they were affecting our lives and relationships today . The good news you could change it all you could take the junk and trash and turn it into treasure through Plan ,Purpose and Perspective.
The evening also included a small group after the lovely Diana filled us all up with revelations,new ideas, and stories to reflect on we would get in our groups and talk. It was no coincidence that God chose to put me with Cerissa who to this day remains one of my dearest and best friends in my small group. She was my first experience of Jesus in skin no judgement just love . At the time I was a mess ,a hot mess to be exact . I was so lost I didn’t even know I was lost ,and once I realized exactly how lost and how long I had been going down the wrong way I was terrified and overwhelmed . How on earth was I going to get home ? I had never even been there! To be honest my baggage was big and the pain nearly unbearable realizing for the first time how wounded and lost I was, my eyes had been opened . This opening finally allowed God to start working in my life ,but I didn’t know what or how to do or deal with any of it . My group did they prayed with me ,no they prayed for me I didn’t know how to pray. Cerissa bought me a bible I had never owened one .They lifted me up they helped me on my journey they listened they cheered me on . Most importantly they were there with me when I stood up. If you don’t know what I am talking about it is the moment when they ask everyone to bow their head and close your eyes then they ask you to stand up. Stand up if you want to invite Jesus into your life and accept him as your savior . I stood up !
That day I had found out I was pregnant with my second child Gabe, I wanted the child in me and the one at home Cole to have a better life a better Mom,perhaps even a better wife for my husband was in there as well ,and if Jesus is the way then yes I’ll stand up. Of course at the time I did not realize there were people cheering behind closed mouths the angels in heaven cheered, sung and gave each other heavenly high fives. Happily I was baptized soon after baby bump and all ,it was glorious I often look at Gabe with wonder he was with me when my heart was opened and my slate wiped clean his presence reminds me of that ,what a blessing .
If you are hurting or just wishing for something more out of life weather you believe or not you have there is a place for you at AGMW. It meets every Monday at 6:30 in Kidsworld Crosspoint Community Church http://www.crosspoint.tv/ so what are you waiting for ?
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