Tomorrow we will be packing up our family up in our Mini van and heading to Birmingham Al. For my first ever book signing ! Did I just write that ?
The deal of a lifetime isn’t in any contract or deal you can get from a human.or company. The deal was when I gave my life to Christ.
Can I be honest when you look at those books below you are looking at a miracle you are looking at God.
Most people don’t realize that I have only recently begun painting again. At the age of 17 just before graduation. I was told by a very important authority figure in my life “Art is stupid anyone can do that…”
Art was the one thing I had always been good at. It was my gift it came easy to me it was like breathing. When I heard that comment I literally felt something in me physical be crushed. In that moment I gave up my gift walked away into a life that was not mine. I graduated got a desk job crunching numbers the very thing I wasn’t good at no matter how hard I tried. The thing that made me feel like I was suffocating. I gutted through that job for 16 years.
I had even forgotten that ever was an artist.
I was MISERABLE.
I’m not sure if it was God that found me or I found him in the end it doesn’t matter. All that matters is that We found each other.
2003
Standing in the Garage of our newly purchased home surrounded by only boxes. I heard “You need to push Paint around” I heard it so loudly I turned to see who was in the garage with me. I looked twice because there was no one there. Was I going crazy ?
I know not it was the holy spirit he had to speak loudly to me because otherwise I wouldn’t have heard him. I really didn’t know him at that time. I had gotten saved in 2000 ,but had not yet been transformed . I didn’t grow up knowing God or believing in Jesus. When I started my journey I was a spiritual quadriplegic. I had to learn to walk in Him not me.
God meet me where I was at. I began to learn through Church ,scripture community and bible study. It was not always easy it was certainly not always what I wanted to do ,but I did it anyway and it was worth it.Through time and circumstance he changed me, he changed my life.
One of the first things I learned was God was more interested in having a relationship with me than what he could do for me. So everything I did was about knowing him.
Not once did I pray to get a book deal or even just to be a working artist.
What I did pray
Lord,open my eyes, reveal yourself to me, help me with my disbelief, let me see you in my day, heal my heart, make me more like you, help me be the person you want me to be, break my heart for what breaks yours, let me and my families life glorify you.
let me put all my faith hope love and trust in you…
Over 8 years these have some of my daily prayers…
He has answered them all in one way or another repeatedly. Leaving me speechless and thankful. These books are one of the answers that you can see.